I am a 15 year old boy who masturbates daily. I tried both straight and gay porn to experiment whether I’m gay or not. I have been living in fear for 2 years now and I even talk to my guidance teacher about. I also went to a doctor and said that I suffer from OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder), I didn’t get up from bed or eat, just thinking all day long about being gay or not. However, I’m all right now but not fully cured. The thing is, when I watch gay porn or fantasize about it gets me aroused. I do not however want to be in any kind of relationship with a man. I like mature girls and when I find a girl mature I become very attracted to her like I want to be with her and feel warmth inside me. I have never felt this way to a man. What do you think? Does this arousal mean I’m gay…or maybe bisexual?
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July 9th, 2010 at 1:44 am
It’s possible that you could be bisexual, but since you don’t seem to feel the same "warmth" about men as women, then it might only be a phase that you’re going through. At your age, your hormones are completely all over the place and many of the things that arouse you now will change as you get older.
You’re at a very curious stage in life where your body and mind are changing so rapidly. Your sexuality is developing, so it’s normal for you to be curious and to be turned on by different things. In the end, if it turns out that you are bisexual, then that’s fine. If not, then it was just a phase of your teenage years and nothing to worry about.
July 9th, 2010 at 1:44 am
dude having ocd has nothing to do with seexuall orientation. amd i dont think your gay or bi, some people are just into differnt stuff xo
July 9th, 2010 at 1:44 am
Its the devil using that porn. Get away from it because it can mess you up.Plus your hormones are going wild and you have not learned how to control.Excessive masturbation is not good emotional either.You need to be closer to your dad & need to have more confidence in yourself.You are a boy soon to be a man. You are just as good as anyone else & God made you special like one of a kind for a special purpose.Realize those truths should start you pointing towards the right way. Need more,ask me!
July 9th, 2010 at 1:44 am
well youre 15 you could just be experimental, your learning about your body through the eyes of other guys, of course you could be bisexual but dont panic, Im 18 and bisexual and completely normal
If you want to talk about it email me bro
July 9th, 2010 at 1:44 am
Small world. I have OCD as well…and your OCD doesn’t interfear with your sexual orientation…but getting aroused by things is one of the things that can contribute to your sexuality…but that alone isn’t enough to base it on. Your hormones ar going 100 miles per minute right now…you’re at that time where your discovering things out about yourself…you might be bi-curious…many possibilities. eMail me if you need further advice.
Best of luck. =)
July 9th, 2010 at 1:44 am
There’s more to sexuality than straight and gay, with bi in the middle, if you think of it as a sliding scale, then you start to get the picture.
You could be somewhere between bi and straight, or, of course, it could just be a phase that you’re going through.
At 15, most guys are turned on by anything remotely sexual, so it could just be that.
Make friends with guys and girls, and see who you’re most comfortable with, that should give you some indication of your sexuality. Don’t worry if you do find yourself attracted to gay porn, it’s not as if there is a guy in the room with you, it’s just entertainment.
Whatever you turn out to be, have fun discovering yourself, I know I did.
July 9th, 2010 at 1:44 am
dude theres nothing wrong with you ! i am 16 and straight and still i masturbate to gay porn but in real life i cant imagine having a relationship with a guy . i have a girl friend and i masturbate everyday too . i thought it was a phase at first but gay fantacies and gay porn still turn me on . you are straight and just curious !!! take it from me !!! if you want you can IM me
cheers
vikram
July 9th, 2010 at 1:44 am
You’re 15! It is normal to get aroused by lots of things. Don’t worry about it so much and you will become what you become.
OCD, on the other hand is a serious issue. Get treatment for it and it will improve. Consider both counseling and meds.